I simply feel the gods gave us a reset button and someone pushed it, someone gave us this time to get back to basics, to have moments with loved ones and most importantly connect with our higher self again. I know it has helped me reconnect to the world and to my gods.
Midgard is under stress right now and I hope somewhere the All-father wanders and is offering the sick some help, that he is quietly watching as the earth starts to breath a little more. I hate to see so much suffering in the world of men right now, I hate to see so many scared and venerable people, the gods will is all I can have faith in.
I sit here listening to the crows bellowing from the speakers as Wardruna bang the drums of the gods, speaking to us via the medium of song. I hear Odin’s name pumping in to my ears and feel a sense of relief wash over me, the national news is muted in the background with its yellow band of alerts scrolling below filling the mids of its watchers with up to date sadness.
I have been doing a little bit of net surfing lately, trying to understand how we as Asatru fit in this world. Of course, the old ways see us as warriors with our only way to Valhalla is to die in battle, to seek favor with the gods through brutal acts. For me, this is the glamor side of what we do, its the poster child for our faith and that’s why it’s picked up by hate groups and others. They see our ways as a way to justify hate and ‘fight’ for an honor so they can enter Valhalla and dine with the gods. I have been pondering this of late and have some thoughts on the matter.
I have had some issues of late trying to understand how my faith fits in my life. Is Asatru really me, did I hunt for it or did it find me and being a spiritual person I often asked myself if I was crazy. Does the god Thor really protect my room as I asked him too? does Freyer offer me love and comfort? does Odin give me wisdom and help guide me?
Sometimes being a pagan is tough! People think you are slightly nuts or that you take small animals and sacrifice them to a higher being. That you dance around a tree and take many woman to bed in some sexual desire. This is the case, I promise you my friends as much as the last part sounds fun.
This week has been tough, for many reasons, to which I wont explain all go into. It’s been a long hard tough one, let’s just say that. Have you ever walked around and not seen a face you no or can talk too?
Its very easy to get lost in yourself and also lose the ability to find solace and advice from your belief system. Sometimes life just takes over, it just does and I wish sometimes I could take step back and survey the field a little
It’s hard this day in age to be different which is kind of acceptable yet still, we have stigma’s attached to certain area’s, including how we live and what kind of things we believe in