Staying safe…

I thought I’d pop on and check on my wonder Asatru friends and hope you guys are all staying safe in this world, where ever you may be.

It’s all a little crazy right? The world has gone slightly different to how we all envisioned it would be after yule ended. Shouldn’t we all be getting ready for the summer and what ever raids we are looking to take on. I call them raids, but not in the literal sense. I guess I find my raids to be personal goals and achievements I’m looking to conquer this year. But here we all are locked down and locked up in our respective homes.

I think its a really good time for a reboot, a time and place to gain some serious headspace, but to more importantly reconnect to the gods and find some peace with that. We have such a busy lifestyle these days, mobile phones, work, travel and such that finding time to just be, to sit in ones head and speak to Valhalla is always bottom of the list.

Maybe this is natures way of slowing us down, making us have time for ourselves, making time for the gods, making time for our kin and trying to get some values back in to our lives. We need this, so when you need to rush around fighting for toilet rolls and other things, remember to slow down, think of your village, your community and the older generation.

Reconnect with the gods and seek time to reconnect with yourself, this is a perfect chance. Give yourself 10 mins a day of peace and quiet, be at one with your spirit and that of the ancestors.

Freyja, Goddess of gold, Inspire me today

Show me the way to walk through this moment, to reconnect to myself to you and to all the gods.

Goddess of fiery passion, bless me the insight to not only think of me but also others in this sad time. May you take all those lost spirits to your garden, to soothe those who carry wounds and those who fight to join Odin in Valhalla.

May I show others and radiate this to all my kin

That is my prayer today, Oh great and powerful Goddess. I will mirror your presence throughout my day.

Hail Freyja, shining goddess of gold, I praise you….

It’s a crazy world right now

I sit here listening to the crows bellowing from the speakers as Wardruna bang the drums of the gods, speaking to us via the medium of song. I hear Odin’s name pumping in to my ears and feel a sense of relief wash over me, the national news is muted in the background with its yellow band of alerts scrolling below filling the mids of its watchers with up to date sadness. I feel sad for the world right now, I feel sad for the weak, the scared and the venerable. What have we become…

We have abused our planet for so long and in someway this is her way of fighting back. A micro virus that will kill, it will kill the people who we hold dear and it will hurt many more, yet as the human race has displayed many times before and will do many times in the future, we sit on a knife-edge. The difference between normal and all-out crazy is such a thin line, almost as thin as a piece of paper, yet here we stand as a people, as a world caressing the edge.

The hysteria created that has forced many to stockpile food and household items is simply uncalled for, this isn’t Ragnarok, this isn’t the end of days and this isn’t the last breath you will all breathe. It’s simply another situation whereas people we must look for light to help each other pass-through. I urge you all to seek wisdom from Odin, Love from Freyja and protection from Thor. Don’t fall under Loki’s spell and start taking from the neighbors we hold so dearly, help our older generation as they gave us life. Seek that of the gods and ask for guidance and look after your kin.

The time now is for calm and to follow the advice and wash those hands! Stay home if you are sick, but most of all, be calm! We will all dine-in Valhalla one day, but today my friends is not that day! Summer is coming and the raids begin!

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Asatru today!

You ready for a revelation? I’m a medium of some description, I hear and see spirits. Some call me crazy and some say its a personal journey, some look at me with some disgust and think I belong in some institution for the insane. I have given close friends energy healings and I have worked with runes to try and see if they tell some fortune or even the future. I can walk into a room and feel the energy and decide just on that if I want to stay there or not. Again some call me crazy and you know what half the time I think I do to… Sometimes…

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I have a spirit guide who calls herself Freyja, I mean that’s the name she uses, I don’t know if that’s the goddess Freyja or an imposter who calls herself Freyja. But I think it is her and the light and energy she omits is crazy. Spiritual friends who have connected with her also feel it and I have had many confirm who it is I say it is. So why did I say all this! Well, to be honest, it’s just nice to get it off my chest and say something as I keep it very private.

So that’s why I’m a full Asatru and why I fully embrace our gods and the was of the ancient ones. But I this of some of the things I have been seeing online, I feel e can be Asatru and be peaceful and mindful of others and how they choose to worship others. Just because they are Christian doesn’t mean that they personally stole our ideas and spun them to there faith. So why do certain areas troll them, give them full on abuse for something that happened thousands of years ago?

Why do groups feel the need to work towards claiming history is the only reason they exist. I read just today about how Christians stole our yule and made it the 12 days of Christmas. Look I mean history is a cruel mistress, so much has happened and so much has been recorded from one side. Why can’t we as Asatru just try and fit into the world and share our views as Odin would want? Freyja is love, and she will guide us in moving forward. I just wish we stop trying to blame history and other faiths and just create Asatru in the 21st century so we can be taken seriously and we can be a peaceful faith that is left alone to worship the gods.

The modern-day Asatru

I have been doing a little bit of net surfing lately, trying to understand how we as Asatru fit in this world. Of course, the old ways see us as warriors with our only way to Valhalla is to die in battle, to seek favor with the gods through brutal acts. For me, this is the glamor side of what we do, its the poster child for our faith and that’s why it’s picked up by hate groups and others. They see our ways as a way to justify hate and ‘fight’ for an honor so they can enter Valhalla and dine with the gods. I have been pondering this of late and have some thoughts on the matter.

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Firstly I should point out these are my views and feel I really need that to be said. Ok here goes, firstly I have been watching season 5 of Vikings ready for the new season that’s just been released (Side note its a great show and should be watched) anyway, there is a certain storyline that the character Floki the boat builder takes on where he tried to empower a settlement to be peaceful. The gods speak to him for this to happen, to stop brothers killing brothers and to end the bloodshed. Firstly that’s the Asatru I wish to be, I wish to be tolerant and peaceful, my goddess Frejya commands it from me. Odin is my All-father but Frejya is who I worship.

My other wonder or question is this, Ragnarok is the end of days in Asgard, the gods fight a mighty war against evil and when this happens Baldur will be reborn! I hope I have the story straight as I write this and hope if I don’t then please tell me, I’m always happy to learn. But if the above is right, we died all those years ago to form the army in Valhalla to fight that war with the gods. Now I ask this, What if that war has happened, what if the gods showing up now is their way some 1000 years later that the end of days is over, light shines on us from Baldur who is now reborn and we are now able to leave in peace and harmony with other faiths, peoples and creeds.

I don’t want my faith to be connected to hate or to have it only right for fighter and those in the national services. We have the chance to be heard, the chance to show that we as Asatru are peaceful loving kind people who can live amongst others in a world that is crazy.

I ask you to join me in for a moment with Frejya the goddess of love

Freyja my goddess, Allow me today to fill my heart with love, guide me on my journey and fill me with peace and harmony, allow me to seek my brother’s arm in care and not violence, My goddess Freyja we praise you…

I have been away…

I have had some issues of late trying to understand how my faith fits in my life. Is Asatru really me, did I hunt for it or did it find me and being a spiritual person I often asked myself if I was crazy. Does the god Thor really protect my room as I asked him too? does Freyer offer me love and comfort? does Odin give me wisdom and help guide me?

The list above could go on and on, I have struggled somewhat with my faith of late and there is so much miss-information out there. Some groups focus on the military to push Asatru or some the old way focusing on nature and the old ways of living. But how do we fit Asatru into a daily boring life?

We know longer grow crops or have summer raids, we no longer have to give birth to children without medical intervention so a lot of the old ways are somewhat deemed no longer needed. We need not sacrifice small animals or if the tales are true humans to the gods for a good harvest the next year, nor do we ask the gods to give us safe births and pain-free children. I prey to Freyja daily and ask for just a peaceful mind, I feel a connection to her more than that of Odin and Thor, I wear my armring with pride and have my hammer of Thor around my neck at all times.

I think for me it’s about understanding, it’s not like I have a church I can pop into on the way home or a social group who can help me go over what we can use daily. And as I said above there are pockets of people pushing the god’s messages in different directions and to different people. I would love to simply find a group that just discusses the gods and how they fit into working joe lives.

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Anyway I am back and will be updating regularly and hope you enjoy my reads and please leave me some comments and we can have a chat. I have a wonderful theory on Baldur I’d love to chat about.

A meeting of two faiths

Sometimes being a pagan is tough! People think you are slightly nuts or that you take small animals and sacrifice them to a higher being. That you dance around a tree and take many woman to bed in some sexual desire. This is the case, I promise you my friends as much as the last part sounds fun. I became a pagan last year when my gifts came out after many years, “Old Magic” I was told by many spiritual folks. See Im somewhat of a medium and trust me folks its as crazy to me as it sounds to you, I still struggle with it daily but I have sort out many people to help me understand it and guide me.

Freyja was the first name that came through to me from my now faith and I have quizzed this spirit many times about how, why and what they are. I truly believe it is her and that the information she has given me can only stronger bring that forward. But anyway thats another long blog post for another time. So back to the point of this one! So minding my own business walking to work today I was stopped by a young man offering me a leaflet. Do I believe in god he asked? Me with my normal reply and thinking I should somewhat avoid that question said “No”. It’s my natural response you, people thing of you nuts when you utter the words “No but I believe in Gods!”. He asked why? I simply stated I’m a pagan and then waited for that look.

But my Odin loving friends that look never came, he simply said the following “Wow, thats cool and Im glad you have a faith, so many do not these days!” and let me tell you this, I was shocked and surprised. But what happened next was awesome and I must say the lad was a polite young man and showed interest in our faith and what we do within it. He never once told me I was wrong and I had a good 20 minute conversation with him. About life, the world , the gods and everything. To the point we actually swapped numbers and said we should get together and discuss it some more over a coffee!

Buldr – is the god of light, joy, purity, and the summer sun
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The whole exchange has restored my faith in people of other faiths, I have had some negative reactions in the past and to have a faithful man speak to me for a while and understand a belief system is a personal choice and exchange some views on both was a heart warming and eye opening experience. Today showed that two faiths can have a healthy discussion and walk away friends. Today was a nice light and warming! I thank Baldr for the light that shined down today as me and my new friend can discuss all that is real in the world and still walk away as buddies!

For people, the greatest things are fire, the sun, great health, and living a great life

The week on the edge

This week has been tough, for many reasons, to which I wont explain or go into. It’s been a long hard tough one, let’s just say that. Have you ever walked around and not seen a face you no or can talk too? That’s how my life feels where I live, I literally have no one to turn too, I’m just here alone working on a contract and have been for sometime.

So I have had some issues with a person and its bought me to my knees, like literally I felt horrendous. I walked the local Mall on Tuesday afternoon searching for a friend, someone to talk to, grab a beer and go over it, anyone would have done and there I stood and I didn’t see a face I knew. ALONE!! That’s truly how I felt, just alone. I stood there and wondered whats the point, why bother anymore. Valhalla seemed like the best possible answer. To dine with the gods and just be free of hurt and pain, to stand next to Freyja and feel her love or have Odin give me his wisdom.

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I actually thought about it for maybe 15 mins, how much nicer would that be, to finally feel some peace, no more pain and no more hurt. I was consumed by this thought of actually taking my own life just to let the pain and hurt go away. Valhalla seemed a better option and then something happened, something remarkable. My phone buzzed, and I had an instagram message, from a Norwegian lady I have never met or spoken too. I post the odd Asatru post but not many but I do hashtag #Viking often, so how and why she reached out i’m not sure, but what she did snapped me out of it and made me think the gods were watching.

The message read “May Odin grant you wisdom, Thor Protect you and Freyja show you love xxx”, At that moment the relief was unreal, a smile drifted across my face and I felt a sprint in my step. These past few days since have been positive, they have been full of smiles and I feel more focused on my goals. That moment I knew the gods were watching, in my darkest moment I needed something and they delivered. Many may call it coincidence me I call it divine and my gods watch over me.

Life lessons

Its very easy to get lost in yourself and also lose the ability to find solace and advice from your belief system. Sometimes life just takes over, it just does and I wish sometimes I could take step back and survey the field a little, ask advice from others, or the gods if you’re that way inclined. When something hurts we lash out, or we make snap judgement calls that at that moment just feels right. It feels like the best thing to do. I myself am a massive culprit of this character trait, and all it gets me is regret or a self loathing that simply doesn’t help me or the person in the situation.

I often wonder how the gods would deal with such things, how would Odin manage a situation where it’s full of hurt? How would Freyja? and sometimes I even find myself looking to Loki. I wonder how if at that moment a god has simply snapped or lashed out, or is it just part of the human condition? Today as I write this my soulmate is flying home, but we didn’t part on a perfectly, it wasn’t bad but it wasn’t great, I said some things through fear and through being selfish, Loki must have played a part in this and tears had flown. I will see her again and I miss her but now I sit full of regret waiting for her to land to tell her how sorry I am and that I miss her.

Loki – The Trickster God

Why as human’s do we lash out? Why cant we just sit and wait a second before making snap choices. It’s something I need to learn and something I need to spend time working on, with the help and guidance from the gods its something I want to change in myself. Life I have noticed is just full of lessons and i hope one day I will learn enough to know what it means to be human and treat everyone the same.

My First Encounter!

So it all began last year, June 2018 to be precise. I’d had an up and down life since this moment; some joyful fun times and some very dark days, full of all the things most people go through in life. I had two kids from two different woman, one of which I did see and one of which I didn’t, I had a just came out of a six year marriage and quite simply was a little lost in what I wanted to do moving forward. Now I am a software developer, which I do enjoy very much! It’s one of my biggest achievements in life and to this very day I’m happy with that. I’ve always felt something missing, and always felt like I had a purpose or simply to see something beyond my normal everyday 3d world life.

Anyway, back to June! So it rolls around and I find myself through a set of circumstances in the The Collage of Psychic Studies, London. A nice midday meditation to sooth the soul is always cool, right? So I climb up this old set of stairs to a very large attic space in this three story large- I’d say Edwardian town house. Images of past occupants and students hang from the wall, and the hand rails have managed to lose their brown color over the years. The walls could use a lick of paint here and there, including the peeling ceilings which, really do give you a sense of how old this building is. So I climb stair after stair up a narrow corridor and then hit this room which has caused my body energy to change, I felt a shiver down my spine and the hairs on my arms stand to attention! To say I didn’t feel right was a HUGE understatement, I felt very anxious and uneasy but I went with it. I steadied myself and took a breath and sat in a room full of chairs, a few ladies sat to my right and I managed to snag one by the door, just incase.

Then I heard it, “GET OUT!!!!!” in the lowest male voice, booming in my ear. I looked around searching for where it came from, my eyes darting left to right, up and down trying to find the males voice. “GET OUT NOW!!!” there it was again, I couldn’t compute it, my brain was in a frenzy and I couldn’t see were the shouting was coming from, I had to leave. I had to get out and run, that’s exactly what I did as fast as I could out of the door. But I am a man of science (or so I thought), I needed to see were the shouting came from and in my head I just kept telling myself there must be a room next to the one I was in and figured two people were arguing in it. So that was my first stop, I rounded the corner to be greeted by a toilet, and yep that was it; that was all I could see a wonderful ceramic loo with a lovely pull chain flush and I must say a lack of paper!

I walked back past the room I had so quickly left and gazed in for a few seconds, their sat at the back of a room was a rounded gentleman at a desk. Pen in hand and paper to write on, pointing at something. He dressed strange, and I have not seen a desk like that… ever. The papers to his left lifted as high as his neck and his white beard hung low with a brownish tinge to the moustache, which I assume was due to smoking. He sat very proud and very stern in his posture; as I viewed him for a moment I noticed not a single person in the room paid any attention to him, like he wasn’t there. They all had their eyes closed meditating, humming, and being in that moment. “GET OUT NOW!!!” one more time from the man at the desk and again no one in the room flinched and that was my cue! My legs haven’t moved that quick in 20 years, I raced down the stairs to the book room, took a seat as my body returned to a normal state and just continued to sit.

Once upon a time…

I guess I always felt some weird connection to the gods, from a young age I would always look up at a thunderstorm and claim it to be Thor beating his mighty hammer or looking out over the horizon; while feeling a sense of loneliness or a longing that Odin must have felt when he hung from the tree. I remember my ex-partner was insanely scared of thunder, so much so she managed to turn my dogs the same, and every time the thunder hit and they would run for the safety of the bed I used the same line, ‘It’s just Thor’.

See I never felt quite complete, like something was missing. I have had a very up and down life with many trials and tribulations, some very simple and some of my own doing but it has never been easy or just plain sailing. I have fought much in my time, anxiety, depression and health issues but I always felt like I had a hand on my shoulder, or someone telling me it’s going to be ok and to just keep going and that’s exactly what I did.

Up until a few months ago, I was a science man, the big bang, a moment in time and all that. I never believed in a higher power or a god, I was logical in my approach to life and that this is it, the time we have on this planet is the only one we get and the try and make the most of it. Never did I believe I had down this before and I was a simple chemical reaction on a planet just lucky enough to harbor life. It’s a very solid belief system and sometimes I wonder if its true but then there are times I remember the feelings I now get.

As a small child I felt things, things that today make sense but back then I never really understood or wanted too. You know those feelings of being in a room and thinking I’m not alone. I can recall waking up every night Monday to Friday and seeing a shadowy figure climbing the stairs. I would hide under my pillow until he reached his destination and then when the coast was clear I would call for my Mum or my brother with whom I shared a room. I could walk into a room and feel someone with me and my eyes would dart around trying to find where or what was joining me. But as I got older I switched it off, my mind became full of getting older, Girls, Jobs, Partying and the future and to be honest I never looked back on those days until very recently.

We do not bend the knee in supplication to the gods and goddesses. Nor do we beg them to do for us; rather we ask them to empower us to do for ourselves. We neither need nor ask for our god’s forgiveness. We were not born into sin. We were born to be the best we can be…